Confessions of a desperate actor with a bad case of island fever.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Ugly thoughts, BE GONE!!!!

Boy meets girl. Girl likes boy. Boy likes girl. A relationship begins. They fall in love. This particular girl is blonde and very fair. Boy tells girl at beginning of relationship that he's not usually attracted to women who look like her. Blondes. He is attracted to darker skin, darker eyes, hair. Girl finds out he also has a specific attraction to women of a certain race. The physical characteristics of this race are very far from her own. At first she doesn't give it a second thought. She is beautiful in her own way and is comfortable with herself. She feels sexy. Confident.
THEN. Then the relationship gets deeper. Boy loves girl very much and girl knows this. Girl falls harder for boy.
HOWEVER.... inadequacies begin to surface. She begins to feel unattractive to him. Not always. And not too often. But she remembers those words. She compares herself to women he may prefer physically over her.
But she also realises this is CRAZY. And she buries those ridiculous thoughts. As quickly as she can.



But they always come back.

She wants them gone.


Blogger warriorprincesse said...

But it obviously wasn't working with this particular race. He's found the race that suits him better. His preferences are now racist. Don't worry.

3:49 PM  
Blogger Neenia said...

did something happen?

8:39 PM  
Blogger artsmonkey said...

ahhh! i know where you are at. i know so well! all you can do is trust that you (not being his superficial type) have surpassed this particular fetish of his (which it may as well be) and opened his eyes to real beauty (you) and lead him away from judging based on stereotype. he's grown up, and you're the one who's helped him do it. i think i used to have a type - but the wonderful people i've dated have completely changed my perspective.
i know after all this is said, it's still difficult to get past - but just keep reminding yourself that he chose you.

9:40 PM  

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