Confessions of a desperate actor with a bad case of island fever.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Injured Heart

So that's it. My lovah left NYC today and I'm still here. We're apart, separated by 762 miles of Atlantic Ocean. Oh, how it hurts. My eyes, literally, have not dried since he left 6 hours ago. Watching him drive off in that cab just about made my heart give out and my body collapse. I love him more than I ever imagined possibe. He is my best friend and so much more. .....(so much for the dam i had built to stop these tears, they're back. I knew there was a reason i didn't want to write this blog yet.) But i need you guys. You, my online companions will be hearng much from me now that I have embarked on this many new changes, exciting opportunities. I like my neighbourhood. It's way uptown but I love it. i love that i'm living with my brother and his girlfriend and how much they're looking out for me. i'm in a really positive environment; i'm incredibly thankful for that.

Tomorrow's monday which means the start of a new week, which means i have many tasks to accopmlish. i've already opened a bank i just need to get a cell phone and find a job, find a gym, a dance studio and go down to TKTS and see what's half price tomorrow night.........i'm thinking of trying to see a show a week for the next few weeks. i want to see "the apple tree" and "spring awakening"...and so much more.'s a bit overwhelming but i think i like it that way.

oh my!!! I saw the revival of a chorus line on friday night!!!!!! and MY GOD, i couldn't believe how many memories came flooding back. i felt like i was watching chris blair all over again....they had identical kinda freaked me out. (oh and skinnyrabbit, you were way better. he just wasn't the same without the leg lift on "i mean, it didn't go down for 3 years") and charlotte d'amboise who played cassie turned into ethel merman during 'music and the mirror'. but her dancing kicked ass. but still, she didn't do the whole package for me. but i thought of all of you and got overly sentimental and, consequently, cried my eyes out. OH! I was also psyched because Bebe was played by the chick who was Curly Sue!!! i don't know if anyone else shares that favorite childhood movie but I was ecstatic about it. what's even cooler is, is that she was awesome! AND her mom played the same role in the original show. love it.

ok...this blog is getting so long that i fear none of you will read it.


Blogger Neenia said...

of course we'll read to the end, we love you. i love that you're in new york. i don't love that you're sad without your lovah. *hug*

12:48 AM  
Blogger skinny-rabbit said...

Never stop writing! I was wanting more! I can't believe that about Curly Sue! That's amazing! I know our Bebe will be so happy to hear that too!

I'm so excited for you being there but at the same time I hate you for being there and seeing all these shows, while I'm stuck in a shithole.

3:40 AM  
Blogger DancingAntsInMyPants said...

that's why you must come visit!!!

9:04 AM  
Blogger bedroomprince said...

I hate that you're in New York and I am not there with you. But other than that, I love that you're in New York. Go you!

1:05 AM  
Blogger warriorprincesse said...

duuuuude! that's awesome! by that i mean everything! curly sue was meme? I mean bebe?! that's so coooool! HAAAAVE FUUUUUN!!!!!

2:35 AM  
Blogger artsmonkey said...

curly sue rules

1:40 PM  
Blogger warriorprincesse said...

Wait, it is sad that your lovah had to leave, it's really really hard when that happens. I hope you get to see him again soon and that you keep yourself very occupied and distracted until then!

9:13 AM  
Blogger Neenia said...

motherfucking blog again. you're in new york, you have tons to blog about!

5:59 PM  

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