Focus and ye shall succeed

It's funny how you can come away from some rehearsals feeling like the scene just shat all over you and others like some sort of magical wand has touched the air your walking on. Last night was one of the latter ones. I had moments in my scene when I felt so connected......I know that's a vague term in actor language, but it was as if I finally found the honesty, the bridge between the Jessie and the Belle.....The Belle within the Jessie.....or something like that. We rehearsed the scenes where the Beast saves my life, I dress his wolf wounds, we go on to eat soup, and then he gives me my own library. It was a long night, but a worthwhile one.

I hope tonight is one of the more focused rehearsals, too. I'm just begininng to realise how important it is to "stay in" what your doing the WHOLE time. I've always known this to be a necessity, but applying it 100% now seems vital. I seem to have some form of A.D.D sometimes and our cast is notorious for breaking away and cracking jokes at every opportune moment......so it's easy to lose focus sometimes, but when you really get in and commit to it, everything works. I did learn that once upon a time in theatre school, it's the application that needs to stick.

for example, skinnyrabbit and I's infamous 'apple scene'. We were unfocused and awkward.....we are like that in real life anyway, so the scene kinda worked.....but our instructor saw right through it. i cant believe on top of all that, i did the scene in my underwear. no wonder he couldn't stop laughing........

well, here's hoping that tonight's rehearsal of the highly dramatic "transformation and finale" will prove me to be the actor I wish to be.................

but something tells me I won't see her for another 40 years.